thoughts?

I was intrigued by a question raised. However, I will not specify the details of the question but I will put it in general terms.

"why do we act in assertiveness towards something we know that it's against the morality of humankind?"

with the complexity of our brains. we should be able to make sound decisions and execute actions only after thorough thoughts. again, 'should', I emphasize.

So.

What is the main driver in place when we engage in certain decision-making?

Given a scenario, why do people choose to smoke in the first place when they already know the consequences? it affects their own health, it affects the people around them, it serves no purpose (no, it does not relieve stress. so smokers, do not kid yourselves), it's a waste of money, it stinks, it pollutes (oh dear God the cigarette butts all over) etc.

I would say external factors are so important as to how we react. The people around us, the pressure we take in everyday, the fear we live in, judgements (while most of us only show the world what we want to portray, not exactly who we genuinely are, how convenient is that art yes?)

Have you ever had a major issue with being irrational? Have you ever acted against the principle of moralities?

I am almost certain you have.

Hmmm...let's have some time alone to figure this out.


Until then.

Start of a brand new year.

I wonder if anyone will ever drop by this cyber space of mine. that's right. 10 months. I left this blog deserted for almost a year. Isn't it sad? 

How much have I grown over the past year? I seek an answer to this question. Year after year has gone by *Swooooosh*Snap* just like that. At times I doubt my strength and ability to adapt to changes. Maybe I am just slow, slow at gaining momentum. It's time to wake up to my senses that I am no longer a mere student with minimal responsibilities. I am still a student, not academically but we are all in the process of learning no matter what, yes? 

Changes are constantly happening around us whether we are aware or not. Transition period in life is no doubt unavoidable. There's one thing I wish I can really push myself to do is to step out of my comfort zone. 

What I hope remains unchanged though, is friendship. I remember reading somewhere 'friends are family we choose in life'. And at this point in life, I am more than grateful for the family I chose to be with. 

“Tis the privilege of friendship to talk nonsense, and to have her nonsense respected.” 

― Charles Lamb

Till I pick up the kick to blog again,

Have a great great year ahead you!

just a little something.

Below is an excerpt taken from a book; The Lake by Yoshimoto.

"2 ridiculously fragile people, sliding on a very thin layer of ice all the time, each of us ready to slip and take the other down at any moment, the most unsteady of couples - and yet I believe what I had said. It would be alright.

It's already, March. *gasp*

Let's welcome 2012~!

Hands of the clock will always continue to tick.

This year has been fair to me. I know I'm in no position to neither complain nor dwell on anything. ;)

I just have to be grateful for everything and everyone. I'll try not to take anything for granted...even though at times it's so hard to constantly keep that in mind.

Wonder what's 2012 going to bring me. Nothing's certain. Shall anticipate.

The road ahead will not be easy. In hindsight we almost always think everything we used to face was no big deal, but that's just because time managed to neutralize everything. At that point in time, it was never easy. It's just that we've overcame the matter and that it no longer poses any risk of uncertainty.

"You may have an iPhone running on OS 5, but you have a brain that’s barely running on Version 1.21" - Tim Brownson

So I guess we should realize at times we do have our limits...just keep calm, stay optimistic and everything shall work out piece by piece, hopefully.

Have a joyful year ahead everyone~!

September Effect.

Let's see...

It's my birthday month.. uh, well actually it's approaching the end. The thing is many, many people hate the 9th month somehow, but when you look around..there are so many born in the month of September, it is a statistical fact! Why the hate for September then? Why is there a song wakes me up when September ends? Why did the terrorist attack has to be in the month of September? Why does the largest stock market crash almost always falls in the month of September? (this is called the 'september effect' and it is also statistically recorded but unfortunately, studies have shown no solid evidence as to why this happens on a particular month)

Ahhh~so that is why. But I don't hate september, why? In fact I can't..Because that's when I feel most grateful and appreciative. :D many thanks to all of you really.

I don't blog as often as I would love to. Reason is because my life is pretty much same shit, every day. not kidding. but when there's actually something...it's always something unpleasant. I've mentioned before i hate writing anything unpleasant because there's no reason to put it out to the world not that i'm selfish for not sharing. but the fact that it will one day disappear and life goes on again, yes?

For the past week the house has been fun and it's actually really nice to have guests in the house once in a while really. it feels festive. HAHA.

There is only a quarter of a year left, and clearly everyone's looking forward to a good and decent break from everything ... let's all withstand a little more.

I shall go make myself a coffee and do something productive for real. quick quick quick~

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." -Einstein

5 minutes escape.

i feel there's a need to paint a little something on my blog.

let me start this with an awesome picture I took on Thursday while strolling along St Kilda beach with nsa and k. well clearly these two don't have a clue about this picture but it's not bad so they wouldn't mind anyway. I have no idea why the sun was sitting right above his head, it was unintentional.

Easter Break was way too short. with hindsight, I should have spent my time better instead of complaining it being 'short'.. i'm almost losing my priority. if i don't get hold of myself now....I'm going to be in deep shit.

knowing I'm not actually floating on clouds gives me a peace of mind a little, at least I'll try to restraint myself from wandering off like that continuously...it's real, and I know I have to do something about it.

ahh~ I think I made things sound more pessimistic than they really are.

on a happier note, i managed to watch three movies - Fast&Furious5, Arthur and Thor. I will not consider this as a waste of time because I enjoyed all 3 movies. yayyy! well actually Arthur was just alright, but it's good fun anyway.

oh..I was in the library this afternoon and clearly when I'm bored I tend to stare at my phone, clicking away here and there. went on the UberSocial app and my feed was filled with news on Osama's death. I honestly thought it was some kind of rumours but looks like it came from reliable source so i spent some time reading news. Of course it's a huge deal, I mean I personally think this is more news worthy than the Royal Wedding. but anyway, not so much of my business but I wonder, does his death signifies the end of war? clearly it's a no, at least for now. suffering persists and let's hope there will not be any further retaliation.

"All we are saying is give peace a chance" - John Lennon.

I guess I've spent enough time updating here.

have a good night everyone.

end of daylight savings!

there goes another week.

I've been trying really hard to organize my time properly, making no excuses for me to procrastinate unnecessarily. so i just downloaded this clever application called 'evernote' .. i bet if i can really be a little more disciplined i can do my work pretty well. let's just hope this little application helps. it syncs from my laptop to my phone and vice versa. pretty convenient if you ask me. oh gosh...feels like i'm advertising/endorsing evernote (ㅠ_ㅠ|)



i hate it when i start losing my focal point at times. not that I'm usually a very well focused person, but i'm more of a rational person i guess. this is not a self praise alright, because i don't even know if that's even a favorable attribute. thinking too much, while trying to make some sense out of certain situation can drive anyone crazy.
so more often than not there are people who will act without torturing their brains. and there are people who would rather be stuck in their own little world, not wanting to make the next move unless they find some logic out of it. former or latter, which one are you?

ah right. went to a booze cruise on Thursday night. it was pretty fun, after all it has been really long since all of us have a chance to go out together. The idea of fun doesn't come from the party itself...for me it's the people i'm out with..
but something really bizarre happened on the cruise, thing is i wasn't there at the scene because i was out on the side deck chilling. apparently someone farted and it grossed the crap out of everyone. and worst, those who were happily eating the delicious pizza just have a sudden urge to throw up. can't imagine...ergh.

so, it's going to be a quick update. well since daylight savings is ending, i just thought of spending a bit of time blogging. you know, there's well sort of 'an hour extra' in a day..