just a little something.

Below is an excerpt taken from a book; The Lake by Yoshimoto.

"2 ridiculously fragile people, sliding on a very thin layer of ice all the time, each of us ready to slip and take the other down at any moment, the most unsteady of couples - and yet I believe what I had said. It would be alright.

It's already, March. *gasp*

Let's welcome 2012~!

Hands of the clock will always continue to tick.

This year has been fair to me. I know I'm in no position to neither complain nor dwell on anything. ;)

I just have to be grateful for everything and everyone. I'll try not to take anything for granted...even though at times it's so hard to constantly keep that in mind.

Wonder what's 2012 going to bring me. Nothing's certain. Shall anticipate.

The road ahead will not be easy. In hindsight we almost always think everything we used to face was no big deal, but that's just because time managed to neutralize everything. At that point in time, it was never easy. It's just that we've overcame the matter and that it no longer poses any risk of uncertainty.

"You may have an iPhone running on OS 5, but you have a brain that’s barely running on Version 1.21" - Tim Brownson

So I guess we should realize at times we do have our limits...just keep calm, stay optimistic and everything shall work out piece by piece, hopefully.

Have a joyful year ahead everyone~!

September Effect.

Let's see...

It's my birthday month.. uh, well actually it's approaching the end. The thing is many, many people hate the 9th month somehow, but when you look around..there are so many born in the month of September, it is a statistical fact! Why the hate for September then? Why is there a song wakes me up when September ends? Why did the terrorist attack has to be in the month of September? Why does the largest stock market crash almost always falls in the month of September? (this is called the 'september effect' and it is also statistically recorded but unfortunately, studies have shown no solid evidence as to why this happens on a particular month)

Ahhh~so that is why. But I don't hate september, why? In fact I can't..Because that's when I feel most grateful and appreciative. :D many thanks to all of you really.

I don't blog as often as I would love to. Reason is because my life is pretty much same shit, every day. not kidding. but when there's actually something...it's always something unpleasant. I've mentioned before i hate writing anything unpleasant because there's no reason to put it out to the world not that i'm selfish for not sharing. but the fact that it will one day disappear and life goes on again, yes?

For the past week the house has been fun and it's actually really nice to have guests in the house once in a while really. it feels festive. HAHA.

There is only a quarter of a year left, and clearly everyone's looking forward to a good and decent break from everything ... let's all withstand a little more.

I shall go make myself a coffee and do something productive for real. quick quick quick~

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." -Einstein

5 minutes escape.

i feel there's a need to paint a little something on my blog.

let me start this with an awesome picture I took on Thursday while strolling along St Kilda beach with nsa and k. well clearly these two don't have a clue about this picture but it's not bad so they wouldn't mind anyway. I have no idea why the sun was sitting right above his head, it was unintentional.

Easter Break was way too short. with hindsight, I should have spent my time better instead of complaining it being 'short'.. i'm almost losing my priority. if i don't get hold of myself now....I'm going to be in deep shit.

knowing I'm not actually floating on clouds gives me a peace of mind a little, at least I'll try to restraint myself from wandering off like that continuously...it's real, and I know I have to do something about it.

ahh~ I think I made things sound more pessimistic than they really are.

on a happier note, i managed to watch three movies - Fast&Furious5, Arthur and Thor. I will not consider this as a waste of time because I enjoyed all 3 movies. yayyy! well actually Arthur was just alright, but it's good fun anyway.

oh..I was in the library this afternoon and clearly when I'm bored I tend to stare at my phone, clicking away here and there. went on the UberSocial app and my feed was filled with news on Osama's death. I honestly thought it was some kind of rumours but looks like it came from reliable source so i spent some time reading news. Of course it's a huge deal, I mean I personally think this is more news worthy than the Royal Wedding. but anyway, not so much of my business but I wonder, does his death signifies the end of war? clearly it's a no, at least for now. suffering persists and let's hope there will not be any further retaliation.

"All we are saying is give peace a chance" - John Lennon.

I guess I've spent enough time updating here.

have a good night everyone.

end of daylight savings!

there goes another week.

I've been trying really hard to organize my time properly, making no excuses for me to procrastinate unnecessarily. so i just downloaded this clever application called 'evernote' .. i bet if i can really be a little more disciplined i can do my work pretty well. let's just hope this little application helps. it syncs from my laptop to my phone and vice versa. pretty convenient if you ask me. oh gosh...feels like i'm advertising/endorsing evernote (ㅠ_ㅠ|)



i hate it when i start losing my focal point at times. not that I'm usually a very well focused person, but i'm more of a rational person i guess. this is not a self praise alright, because i don't even know if that's even a favorable attribute. thinking too much, while trying to make some sense out of certain situation can drive anyone crazy.
so more often than not there are people who will act without torturing their brains. and there are people who would rather be stuck in their own little world, not wanting to make the next move unless they find some logic out of it. former or latter, which one are you?

ah right. went to a booze cruise on Thursday night. it was pretty fun, after all it has been really long since all of us have a chance to go out together. The idea of fun doesn't come from the party itself...for me it's the people i'm out with..
but something really bizarre happened on the cruise, thing is i wasn't there at the scene because i was out on the side deck chilling. apparently someone farted and it grossed the crap out of everyone. and worst, those who were happily eating the delicious pizza just have a sudden urge to throw up. can't imagine...ergh.

so, it's going to be a quick update. well since daylight savings is ending, i just thought of spending a bit of time blogging. you know, there's well sort of 'an hour extra' in a day..

3-minutes read.

yes I'm planning on a major comeback to this blogsphere. 'yeaaa right, this idiot never keeps her promise...waste my time coming to this page'. I don't blame you for those thoughts, seriously.

so I came back to melbourne, and am planning to continue my nerdy and plain life. but I told myself I need to get a job, to get rid of my guilt. what guilt? guilty of spending too much money and well, it's not exactly the best investment ever to continue studying when i should be working full time already by this old age. then again, everyone knows I'm the queen of unemployed. shouldn't be surprise I still cannot find a job yet. some said I'm not desperate enough (that's not exactly true), some said I'm being too picky (that shouldn't be the case too), some said I'm not serious (i'm goddamn serious i can assure you that), some said you don't have the i-exactly-need-a-job-face-hence-no-one-wants-to-hire-you (what is that suppose to mean?) , some said I'm pure noob (i admit but i'm willing to learn and i swear i'm hardworking). okay okay...whatever. taking my own sweet time, I'm not begging by the roadside, YET. good. calm down. chill. it's alright I do admit I'm still in the 'complacent' mode because I'm not pushed to the edge yet. so yeah, fine it might be partially my fault.

uni life has been pretty alright up till this point. as usual, there's no running away from assignments...I felt so weird because there weren't any familiar faces, and it feels like I'm on another planet. but that's fine. not complaining. I don't need much entertainment during lectures. problem comes in only when there are group assignments. (ㅠ-ㅠ)

life didn't go as well as I would liked it to be, this is suppose to be my temporary escape route. of course I never claim this to be the perfect escape route because I'm not expecting to just close my eyes and slide myself through. it just doesn't work this way. I've already brush past what I needed to before coming back here but it just came back to me and suddenly things just made me feel like I'm the bitch of the decade. and that's just insane. I had to constantly stop myself-take a deeep breathe, think sensibly, don't let it write all over my face, and don't dwell. good it works...yay!

anywayyyy, current issues current issues that we all should be very well aware of...the world's in a total mess currently from war to natural disasters .how much can the earth take really? I'm afraid the earth is getting exhausted. I feel tired for the earth, really. the least we can do now...earth hour. yes, I'm not kidding. let's be in the dark for an hour. 8.30 pm on the 26th March.

alright. guess I've done my job for tonight.

rest well everyone.

ah just so you know, I can't guarantee when my next post will be. but I do micro-blog from time to time on twitter. and my twitter is pretty quiet so if you like to entertain me there, please do so. HAHA. twitter land is a pretty fun to read news and all... :D

sometimes when asked of what sports do i play. i have to pause for a little while to think what sports in the world can i actually do. alright ten years ago, seriously i'll just say badminton without hesitation. now, i don't think i can even hold a badminton racquet right. five years ago i would say swimming. now, i bet i can still say swimming but unfortunately it is not something i do very often now so obviously everything goes really awkward after being on a long hiatus. i need to start getting active again...like seriously. i feel like i'm going to die real young. *touch wood!* plus i sit in front of the computer for far too long. this is abnormal and it's really bad. i know.

so 2 weeks ago? i went snorkeling with nsa and kcm. YAY for that~! where was it? see when things are overdue you just have to think real hard to retrieve the information. oh..Queenscliff that is. had a short drive there from Melb CBD.


the awesome one! weehehehehe....

well, it wasn't that short in fact we were running a little late..lucky enough the boat didn't leave us behind! kidding~ i mean the preparation before getting on the boat is rather tedious. have to try on jumpsuit, flippers (omg kcm and I needed kid-sized flippers..! yay to small feet =.=") and for me, prescriptive goggles. hah!



front deck of the boat! so awesomeeee~



they left me struggling for minutes to grab the snorkel gears. (ㅠ.ㅠ) you know the boat is rocking, I'm not tall plus it was stuck.

getting in the water at first was really. oh. my. gosh. it was cold. and i was so uncomfortable with the damn flippers. i don't know how to swim with it. i lost my flexibility to move and turn around. it doesn't help going against the water current. it felt more like a burden for the first ten minutes at least. but it was alright after that. fuhhh~

first stop was at this Popes Eye (don't ask me what's with the name i don't know?) shallow marine park. it's almost like a horse-shoe-shaped-fortress. well it wasn't that shallow but hell, it smells like hell. i just hope hell doesn't smell like that. HAHAHA. holy crap i don't even know what's with the strong smell. urgh..it's okay. once the snorkel gear is on, we breathe through the mouth. alright..doesn't sound too pleasant but still. you sort of forget the fact that the smell is there, just because you're now breathing through your mouth, it's all good. relax. anyway, all i see in this marine park was..seaweed/kelps/algae?! whatever you call them. loads. tonnes of them. it's like a forest of kelps? good dose of iodine there i guess. honestly i wasn't paying much attention to the fishes, the kelps were so distracting i feel like chopping them off...i don't know? sorry but I absolutely cannot identify some of the pretty fishes. that's a shame.

Next! please embrace yourselves for another stinky as hell destination; Chinaman's Hat. ah..should have took pictures here, why didn't I? i must be so overwhelmed by the smell. sorry my lovely fur seals, i really wanted to take pictures of you bunch, but you smell so bad i just totally forgot about the existence of my camera at that time. for my reader's sake. bear with me because I'll then have to pick a picture from Google to show you what in the world Chinaman's Hat is.



best picture from Google of Chinaman's Hat @ Port Philip. I really would love to say I love love love swimming with them but..that's not particularly the case because i totally almost peed in my wetsuit when one swam right beneath me at a distance of no more than 5 meters i swear. you know, i love animals alright. but the thing is when I'm this close I don't feel good because it's like me trespassing their territory and I know they have every right to bite/nose punch/fin slap/kill or do whatever they want to me. like it or not, there it was in the news just few days ago these seals bit the crap out of some tourists. but anyway, it was quite an experience..!

now on our way to meet and greet the dolphins! it was quite a journey so we tried out some random activity. nsa tried it out first because we both were reluctant to go.





but we tried it after much persuasion. HAHAHA. we're totally nuts. it was good, it feels like a massive bubbly water spa. Then after that was the interesting part, yet the most torturous part. i'm not going to elaborate further because i don't know how to describe the 'process' of being pulled by a boat-having to hold on tight to a bloody rope as if my life will perish if i accidentally let my hands slip off the rope. great. later that night. my arms were totally oh crap, even words cannot describe how intense the pain was. not exaggerating. anyway back to the dolphins..





oh my god, why are they so cute?! why are they so sleek?! so graceful. so intelligent. so joyful. so free. impressively beautiful mammals..please give them much love.

'The Wildlife of today is not ours to dispose of as we please. We have it in trust, and must account for it to those who come after'
-King George VI of England.

i guess i did well for tonight's post. it's 2.15 am and i shall really hop onto my bed.