landed.

i can't say i'm happy. i can't say i'm sad. so what am i?

i've no idea too..it would be a lie if i say i'm crazy happy to be back in melbourne. because the fact that i am not tooo happy. i miss home now. @.@ feels so weird coming back here. i can't seem to sense what's the weirdness but it's just...yeah maybe i'm not used to it yet. and it's like i've to start adapting again. glad it's not an overwhelming feeling that tortures me. it just felt uneasy that's all.

the major difference is that i can't laze around the house doing nothing anymore. can't expect anyone to prepare breakfast or lunch or take me out for dinner. without having to pay. yes! now i found the weirdness.

no wonder the feeling only came after i went out for grocery shopping. and also just by looking at the condition of my room. it drives me insane. so bloody messy i swear i just wanna die. wonder when can this mess clear up. totally. frustrating!

sickening. i think i've turned even lazier. but i know i cannot afford to be any much lazier than i used to be. or else i'll be so dead.

anyway. i think i'm dead tired. though i think i took a nap this afternoon.

had chamomile tea before this. it should soothe me. and let me have a good night sleep. you know chamomile tea is soothing and relaxing right?

good night people.